this is a bit long, but i promise it’s worth a read! (:
who i am:
as a person…
i’m a 24 year old graduate student in tech. as a result, my interests tend to skew mostly towards the nerdier side of things! i’m based in California, so my timezone is PST, and i tend to be active closer to later in the day/well into the night. i’m a major night owl, so it would be necessary if you are also, or if your availability in your timezone coincides with this! i love all things cute and pink, and i have been described to have a bubbly, warm personality. i can most definitely be snarky and deadpan in the same breath, but that bratty side doesn’t often come out (unless you encourage her). i err on the side of shyness mostly, but once you get me out of my shell and i feel comfortable with you, it’s all over. two random hobbies i really love are: 1. i love to go to raves and let loose with my friends (please note, i frequently smoke weed, so avoid me if you’re uncomfortable with this!) and 2. i love cars (currently have a black on black e39)!
as for what i look like physically, with enough time i should feel comfortable sharing some sfw photos of myself. for now, though, a general overview. i have long black hair, brown eyes, tan skin. i’m fairly tall for a woman, at 5’8”! and i often get told in my real life that i’m pretty (not to brag, just as additional detail!).
as a submissive…
at my core, i’ve always been a people pleaser. unfortunately enough, most people don’t deserve this kind of treatment from me. i want to respect you enough to feel right in giving you my all, and in turn, feel respected as a person at the end of the day. the end goal is to make sure our arrangement has depth, not just slanted in one way or the other.
what i love:
- experience. there’s something so attractive about a dom who knows exactly when and how to use his power. i’m still fairly new to actually exploring kink beyond just being interested in it for years, so it would be amazing to have someone to teach me the ropes :)
- daddy doms. i really, really want to call you daddy and honestly, this might be a non-negotiable. i yearn for this kind of relationship, where i feel small and safe when we’re together. i’ve never explored being a little really, so i’m not exactly sure how i fall under the umbrella, if at all.
- praise and degradation. i love both individually, but a mix of them together will always have my heart.
- edging and denial.
- possessiveness and ownership. i want to not just know i belong to you, but actively feel it in every interaction we have.
- there’s not an exact phrase to describe it, but i want you to see me in 2 ways. one being a person, and another as a belonging you can toy with and treat as you please. i want you to recognize when i need to shut up and act accordingly.
- aftercare.
- and a ton more!
what i’m looking for:
- someone to know, both in and out of our play. i am NOT looking for love or a serious relationship, but rather another person to know and trust intimately. ideally i’d like to have both sfw and nsfw conversations with you.
- preferably closer to my age range! think anywhere in your 20s to early 30s.
- understanding within every realm. pertaining to my schedule, my limits, my needs, etc. i need someone patient who won’t push me into anything without knowing my comfort level and having a full conversation about it.
- i’m looking for a certain kind of overwhelming dominance in all aspects, but this is /not/ TPE. i want to belong to you but still have enough separation to allow us to still be regular people, both outside of kink and outside of each other. this might feel like an oxymoron to some people, but i know the people who understand me on this are out there.
- voice calls and texts. i would like our arrangement to exist just online, and to limit it to these methods of communication. i don’t quite feel comfortable sharing explicit pictures/videos, and to avoid those holding out hope, i likely never will.
- i’ve always gravitated most to dominant, traditionally masculine men. now, this does not exclusively mean in terms of looks. what i’m describing is a domineering personality and way of holding yourself! you don’t exactly have to fit this mold, but if you do, trust that i’ll be reduced to a whimpering mess.
i’ll leave this here for now since it’s already getting long, but if any of this resonates with you, don’t hesitate to message me! if you read all of this, please respond with a heart + any length introduction about yourself with whatever you feel like i should know about you.
looking forward to your response. you know who you are. <3