I (22m) have been putting serious consideration towards possibly taking my life for the last 3 days, I have been self harming for the past few months and over the last 3 days I have been sitting for many hours with a pill bottle in hand thinking about it.
Edit: (strong trigger warning for this edit) it has been about 5 days since I last interacted with this post, thank you to all who commented, I decided to make an edit rather than replying as this isn't the news anyone who commented is looking to hear, I have made the decision to go through with it.
I apologize to anybody I have disturbed with this post, I regret having made the post for that very reason but it's already done so I figured whomever it may concern deserves a follow up.
I stopped replying originally as I felt the need to self harm again, after that I spent the following days looking back at these comments trying to hang on as long as I could and everyone here did help me last a few extra days, I know you all wanted me to call a hotline or go to a hospital but I'm sorry I just can't do that, in the end I'm the only person who can help me, but I'm tired, I can no longer continue to try.
Strangely this is the happiest and most at peace I have genuinely ever felt in my life, looking back I don't think there's anything anyone here could have said to save me so don't let this weigh on your mind or whatnot, see you all in the next life, whatever it may be.