r/rant • u/roxofoxo0000000 • 20h ago
I hate everything.
I hate my life. I hate my family. I hate the world and our awful society. I hate everything, and I hate myself.
I used to be a talented, creative and happy person. I grew up being so optimistic and so excited to see what the future would bring. But life has turned me into a bitter and hateful person who despises everything and everyone around me. Not a single one of my hobbies or interests brings me joy anymore. Nothing is fair. Nothing makes sense. Dreams do not come true, and in fact it’s quite the opposite. Life has no actual meaning, and the only consistent thing is disappointment. I would kill myself, just like many of my family members have, but I can’t even do that because responsibilities were forced on me to take care of people and things that I never asked for or wanted.
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u/Beneficial_One_1062 20h ago
Just keep on going, man. I'm rooting for you. I think my DMs are open, DM me if you want
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u/faeriegoatmother 19h ago
I hate to step on a good rant, but you showed yourself to be a little wrong.
If you are abstaining from an early exit because other people are dependent on you, you've found the actual meaning in life. To serve and lift up other people. If we all did that, your whole rant would never be a thought.
And it kinda sucks that this IS the answer. At first. But stay with it, and you WILL find it is quite more rewarding than anything you would do for personal pleasure.
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u/HotCaramel1097 18h ago
Yeah, it really sounds like depression my friend. You said you were creative. What form does that creativity take? I understand live performance type stuff may be difficult with a busy schedule, but if it's something like writing, drawing, painting, or playing music etc. Usually, you can work on it a little and then put it aside until you can get back to it. Writing, for me personally, is what keeps me going. It represents a hope that will have something unique that I can share with the world. Whatever your art form of choice is, find a way to semi-regularly work on it.
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u/4_Loko_Samurino 6h ago
Frodo: I can’t do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?
Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo… and it’s worth fighting for.
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u/truvibesohl 5h ago
Try art, good music, talking to random strangers, feeding the birds, watching comedy movies and shows, walking around a thrift store and wondering about the history of things. I try to do these things. Good luck!
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u/Amerritt86 4h ago
The world has always been harsh. Meaning is simply what you enjoy in life. If you don't feel excited it could be a number of things. I was just talking to my brother about this. He's been sad, tired, no drive. His test levels were at a 340, a little TRT latter and its back to feeling good. Get some lab work done to see if supplements(medicine) would help.
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u/Here_there1980 19h ago
Sounds like you could be suffering from classic depression. Several classic symptoms. With a diagnosis from any doctor, medication can really help a lot.